Wednesday, June 23, 2010

On and On as I go!

Heyy I am back!!!!  I haven't really wanted to write which is sometime almost like breathing to me, other than talking which I am REALLY good at. But I need to write and also to explain why I have been absent, not only from my blog but from the world.

Alright, make sure you are comfortable, this may take a while, I hope I don't bore you with the details, but I don't think this is boring.   Just REALLY blessed to be able to write my story.  You will see why....

O.K. from the beginning, that is where I need to start.  January 2008 I had to have an emergency Gall Bladder Surgery.  All went well, had surgery on Friday in Vegas and came home to Big Bear on Saturday.  No big big deal, right?  Well after two days I was having difficulty breathing,  LONG STORY short, found out that I had two blood clots in one lung and pneumonia in the other.  Eight days in the hospital and a LOONG recovery I made it through.  Stories upon stories I heard about how extremely dangerous blood clots are and how incredible blessed I was to not have died during this extreme times.

Second surgery, October 2008, 10 months later had to have surgery due to a hernia because of lifting a saddle too soon after the gall bladder surgery. No big deal right?  Right, no problems, had surgery in Vegas and stayed for a couple of weeks just to be sure recovery went well. That is what we are talking about!

December 2008, went to the Dr.'s for a girl's annual checkup.  The doctor made the comment in the middle of the exam saying "Your uterus is huge!".  He said that I had a fibroid tumor and it was the size of a 6 month fetus.  Options?  One, take meds to put me into menopause and again 20 pounds, uh, no thanks. Second, surgery to remove, uh no thanks.  Third, let it go and it will  eventually stop growing and go away, Ok that is what I will do.

I was all about the third option, problem was the tumor didn't stop growing, it grew and grew and grew.  When I finally decided to see a surgeon about the monster this past April, it had grown to 12 pounds and almost 2 feet in length!!!  It was like carrying a three month old inside of me! The surgeon said that it needed to be removed sooner than later, and I agreed due to the fact that I noticed I was having heart palpitations and difficulty in breathing, needless to say the weight gain.  Now, don't take the above symptoms and think I was a winey baby, I am one tough chick and if that was happening, I knew something was not right.  It was going to be a non invasive hysterectomy.  What does that mean?  Well it means that they won't have to cut the muscles and recover is easy.  One night in hospital, can be driving in five days, and will only have to be on pain meds for four days.  ARE YOU SERIOUS?   He was spot on!  Incredible!  Details are too long in length, but all I have to say it WOW!

Surgery was scheduled on Thursday, June 3 in Las Vegas and as I said in my last post, went there two weeks early to help with my dad having his hip replaced.  Now the surgeon that I had is probably one of the best if not THE best in the nation.  I had all the confidence in the world to have him perform the surgery.  It went without a hitch except for on Friday, my BP dropped to 30 over 60,(I was looking at upside down!  I meant  60 over 30 and that gave me another night in the hospital.  (I don't do surgeries well). Went home to my MIL's house and by Wednesday, we went out and got a pedicure.  Moving slowly but that would have been unheard a few years ago.

Friday, we were going to go shopping at the 99 cent store and I started having my heart race.  After checking my BP and heartbeat for 10 minutes, I decided to go to the ER just to make sure.  We did and in a hour after getting there and having a ultra sound they found a HUGE blood clot in my right lung!  CRAP!!!!  That bought me three days in I.C.U!  Now I am being under a hematologist/oncologist care, to found out WHY I am throwing this clots.  Unbelievable!

I am very blessed and know that God has his finger on me specifically.  This is the second time I have had them.  I know that I could have died instantly and there is usually no signs to a blood clot, you just drop dead!

I am recovering at home, finally made it after being gone for almost five weeks!  Taking it slowly and enjoying every minute.  I am just keeping my eyes open to see what is in store for me. 

God is incredible and I find myself talking to him ALL the time!  But I can't help knowing that I am still alive is because of HIM.  I have always have been a child of Faith, knowing and believing in all things is the work and word of God.  With this faith it has brought me happiness, contentment, and a true lover of life.  With this faith I have done things that people would not ever dream of doing.  I enjoy life to its fullest and that is my life's work, finding joy in even the littlest things, as I hope you can see it through my little blog.

Now that I have wrote my adventures of the past few weeks I know stare at the title, how can I sum up this story in just a few words??  I thought of a few titles "What the Hell just happened"?......"There's not place like Home?".  Bat out of Hell?  Can't keep a Good Woman Down"  Everyone needs a little help from their friends?  On and On as I go, that it!  And just to think, I was not even thinking of that for a title but it sounds good doesn't it. so there I go!

My words and blessing to you, enjoy your day, enjoy your life, find the littlest things to take your breath away and know that God is beside you, He may be silent but that does not mean He is not doing something incredible in your life, you just don't see it in front of you,  But start paying attention, it's right there.

God Bless my friends, good to have you a part of my life.

UPDATE:  Went to Vegas on Friday to see the Hematologist, still took more blood, and still waiting for the rest of the results.  Boy talk about a turn around, great to see family,  spend special moments with them and then SWOOSH, back home again!  But I still have the rest of the weekend left!  Off to check on the chickens! 

Thursday, June 10, 2010

No I am still here!

Thank you all of my very faithful readers, I do sincerely apolgize for not writing for a while.  Good reason, I have been out of commission for almost a month.

My dad had hip surgery so I went to Vegas to help then followed through myself with a hysterectomy.  So while the recovery is incredible, it still is recovery.  So bear with me and hopefully I will be home next week! But the great news is that I am off the pain meds and even went and had a pedicure yesterday, can you believe it!!  So there are no pics for this one, well I guess I could take a picture of my toes.....I'll be back soon, I promise!