Am I confusing you yet?

I bet that in the past couple of days you have been visiting my blog and there are changes, A LOT of changes.  I want to do somethings different and I can keep my stories in categories instead of one right after the other.  It looks messy to me, so for the past few days I have been (unsuccessful) in trying.

It must be amusing at some degree, my blog looks like it is bipolar!!!  I am trying hard to get it the way I want it, but truthfully I have No idea what I want, too many choices!

So, enjoy the ride!  

On and On as I go!

Heyy I am back!!!!  I haven't really wanted to write which is sometime almost like breathing to me, other than talking which I am REALLY good at. But I need to write and also to explain why I have been absent, not only from my blog but from the world.

Alright, make sure you are comfortable, this may take a while, I hope I don't bore you with the details, but I don't think this is boring.   Just REALLY blessed to be able to write my story.  You will see why....

O.K. from the beginning, that is where I need to start.  January 2008 I had to have an emergency Gall Bladder Surgery.  All went well, had surgery on Friday in Vegas and came home to Big Bear on Saturday.  No big big deal, right?  Well after two days I was having difficulty breathing,  LONG STORY short, found out that I had two blood clots in one lung and pneumonia in the other.  Eight days in the hospital and a LOONG recovery I made it through.  Stories upon stories I heard about how extremely dangerous blood clots are and how incredible blessed I was to not have died during this extreme times.

Second surgery, October 2008, 10 months later had to have surgery due to a hernia because of lifting a saddle too soon after the gall bladder surgery. No big deal right?  Right, no problems, had surgery in Vegas and stayed for a couple of weeks just to be sure recovery went well. That is what we are talking about!

December 2008, went to the Dr.'s for a girl's annual checkup.  The doctor made the comment in the middle of the exam saying "Your uterus is huge!".  He said that I had a fibroid tumor and it was the size of a 6 month fetus.  Options?  One, take meds to put me into menopause and again 20 pounds, uh, no thanks. Second, surgery to remove, uh no thanks.  Third, let it go and it will  eventually stop growing and go away, Ok that is what I will do.

I was all about the third option, problem was the tumor didn't stop growing, it grew and grew and grew.  When I finally decided to see a surgeon about the monster this past April, it had grown to 12 pounds and almost 2 feet in length!!!  It was like carrying a three month old inside of me! The surgeon said that it needed to be removed sooner than later, and I agreed due to the fact that I noticed I was having heart palpitations and difficulty in breathing, needless to say the weight gain.  Now, don't take the above symptoms and think I was a winey baby, I am one tough chick and if that was happening, I knew something was not right.  It was going to be a non invasive hysterectomy.  What does that mean?  Well it means that they won't have to cut the muscles and recover is easy.  One night in hospital, can be driving in five days, and will only have to be on pain meds for four days.  ARE YOU SERIOUS?   He was spot on!  Incredible!  Details are too long in length, but all I have to say it WOW!

Surgery was scheduled on Thursday, June 3 in Las Vegas and as I said in my last post, went there two weeks early to help with my dad having his hip replaced.  Now the surgeon that I had is probably one of the best if not THE best in the nation.  I had all the confidence in the world to have him perform the surgery.  It went without a hitch except for on Friday, my BP dropped to 30 over 60,(I was looking at upside down!  I meant  60 over 30 and that gave me another night in the hospital.  (I don't do surgeries well). Went home to my MIL's house and by Wednesday, we went out and got a pedicure.  Moving slowly but that would have been unheard a few years ago.

Friday, we were going to go shopping at the 99 cent store and I started having my heart race.  After checking my BP and heartbeat for 10 minutes, I decided to go to the ER just to make sure.  We did and in a hour after getting there and having a ultra sound they found a HUGE blood clot in my right lung!  CRAP!!!!  That bought me three days in I.C.U!  Now I am being under a hematologist/oncologist care, to found out WHY I am throwing this clots.  Unbelievable!

I am very blessed and know that God has his finger on me specifically.  This is the second time I have had them.  I know that I could have died instantly and there is usually no signs to a blood clot, you just drop dead!

I am recovering at home, finally made it after being gone for almost five weeks!  Taking it slowly and enjoying every minute.  I am just keeping my eyes open to see what is in store for me. 

God is incredible and I find myself talking to him ALL the time!  But I can't help knowing that I am still alive is because of HIM.  I have always have been a child of Faith, knowing and believing in all things is the work and word of God.  With this faith it has brought me happiness, contentment, and a true lover of life.  With this faith I have done things that people would not ever dream of doing.  I enjoy life to its fullest and that is my life's work, finding joy in even the littlest things, as I hope you can see it through my little blog.

Now that I have wrote my adventures of the past few weeks I know stare at the title, how can I sum up this story in just a few words??  I thought of a few titles "What the Hell just happened"?......"There's not place like Home?".  Bat out of Hell?  Can't keep a Good Woman Down"  Everyone needs a little help from their friends?  On and On as I go, that it!  And just to think, I was not even thinking of that for a title but it sounds good doesn't it. so there I go!

My words and blessing to you, enjoy your day, enjoy your life, find the littlest things to take your breath away and know that God is beside you, He may be silent but that does not mean He is not doing something incredible in your life, you just don't see it in front of you,  But start paying attention, it's right there.

God Bless my friends, good to have you a part of my life.

UPDATE:  Went to Vegas on Friday to see the Hematologist, still took more blood, and still waiting for the rest of the results.  Boy talk about a turn around, great to see family,  spend special moments with them and then SWOOSH, back home again!  But I still have the rest of the weekend left!  Off to check on the chickens! 

No I am still here!

Thank you all of my very faithful readers, I do sincerely apolgize for not writing for a while.  Good reason, I have been out of commission for almost a month.

My dad had hip surgery so I went to Vegas to help then followed through myself with a hysterectomy.  So while the recovery is incredible, it still is recovery.  So bear with me and hopefully I will be home next week! But the great news is that I am off the pain meds and even went and had a pedicure yesterday, can you believe it!!  So there are no pics for this one, well I guess I could take a picture of my toes.....I'll be back soon, I promise!

We do live in the mountains!!!!!

You just get used to your surroundings.  Complacent?  Lackadaisical?  Maybe.  It still surprises me to have people talk about a mountain lion down the road from us, attacking and killing someone's prized sheep.  Or someone's puppy being picked up and taken off all from a mountain lion or a bob cat.

Well ,last week they caught the mountain lion and had pictures of him in the newspaper.  Saddened my heart that they put it down.  We do live in the mountains!!  I told my dad about the mountain lions being in the area and he just looked at me and said "I wouldn't live there, they can attack you and you not even know it". (I thought to myself, I think I would know it when it is attacking me.) Well that was unsettling, so for the next couple of days I was actually nervous about leaving my house even to go to the garage.

But I figured (self-justification) that if a mountain lion would attack me, he would have to be pretty desperate and be half crazy and surely we don't have crazy mountain lions here, so I am safe!

But this year, I have to tell you, I have seen A LOT of coyotes, I am averaging two to three a day.  I try to keep my camera on the table by the window so when they come up my hill, I can catch them.  I know they are stalking my chickens...so every day I am double checking and triple checking my coop.

Andy is working on a house a couple of doors down yesterday and calls me and says "There is a coyote coming down the road and he is BIG!"  I grabbed my camera and waited, NOTHING!! That is ok, I have plenty of coyote pictures to last me and you a while

These were taken yesterday after he (she)  leisurely went past the chicken coop for the second time, I wonder how many times he came by that I didn't see?

I think she is a girl, what should I name her?

Oops!  This is the one in November, however, belief it or not, it did snow yesterday, and it's May!  But as soon as it hit the ground it was gone, but what a beautiful picture huh?

She was moving at a really good clip.

Goin right past my neighbors, move on coyote!

Now just have to be careful with the rattlesnakes, after all we do live in the mountains!

Construction-It Never Ends!

Guess what I got for Mother's Day?

I hope everyone's Mother's Day was special.  Mine was Great!  I had the nicest Mother's Day because of ONE particular item that was on our to do list.

We are big on construction.  We are ALWAYS working on something.  That keeps us going.  Weather warming up and knowing that the front will be our focus this summer, we have been wanting to restain our deck.  Now it looks like it would be a easy thing to do, right?  WRONG....

This is how the story goes.

We put a beautiful redwood deck in two years ago, it is over 1,000 square feet, which is huge!!!  Love it!  Well the deck needed to be stained soon after installing it, easy enough right?  WRONG!!!!  Ok play by play of what we did. 

Staining, step 1

When you go to stain a deck, remember these important  details.....
Take the stain with a sponge on a handle and dip it VERY carefully in the stain and start at the beginning of the wood, continuing all the way to the end.  Then go to the boards next to it (we can do two at a time) and continue all the way down again.  Now this sounds elementary, however, what we did was stain areas at a time which meant that when we were ready to do the second segment we overlapped the stain which looked awful!!!! 

And let me tell you nothing works unless you sand it all the way down, because if you just try to sand it where it is overlapped, it will look awful!  Also, don't try to power wash it, especially on the narrow setting, I have found that the wood splinters!!!!  I also thought it would be cute if I decided to write my name in with the power washer, Andy didn't think that was too funny.  I did until I had to take a sander and try to sand my name out of the deck, crap!

So, we decided last year just to let nature takes it course and naturally bleach out the color and it did.  So now this past weekend we tackled it.

Cleaning step 2

Andy asked me to take the pressure washer, this time with a different nossel and wash the deck, he said it would take a few hours, NAW!!!  I had that thing washed in 15 minutes.  Andy walked up to me and asked "How far have you gotten?"  I told him I was done!  He just looked at me, I hate that look!!

He further instructed me that EACH board had to be pressure washed to take off the stain and get to the bare wood.  WHAT?  That will take HOURS!!!!  So he took over the pressure washer and six and a half hours he had it done!  Boy, was he sore!!!

Mother's Day we brushed and brushed the deck off and put on the new stain, I say we but we all know it was Andy.  Four hours later he had the front finished.  Now I am not mentioning that we had winds come up to about 30 miles per hour and ugly storm clouds with the wind chill about 35 degrees!!!! 

But it got finished and all I can say is:


IT IS BEAUTIFUL!!!!!

I took pictures of it so you can see the difference between the two.

Tomorrow we tackle or should I say he tackles the side deck!  I am very happy with the color I picked out too, it will blend really well with the dirt.

The nice thing about this is  that now we have corrected the problem and know how to stain a deck the correct way, next year we will only have to power wash it like I did and not for six and a half hours!

See the difference between the two?

Looks like two different pieces of wood!  Incredible difference!

This is the one that was powered washed and just treated the railing can't wait to get the pictures of it tomorrow!!!

You would think that the way the sunlight is hitting this it is an illusion, but it isn't.  that is the WAY difference in wood. WOW!!!!

More pictures of the transformation to come....

Autism Day- April 24th. Day of Tears of Joy and of Thankfulness at Double Six Ranch

I have been putting pictures together of the Autism Day held at the Double 6 Ranch in Apple Valley.  My last post had the fundraiser with pictures of the events that took place.

I didn't know what to expect, except for what we witnessed on the day of the ride, which was an incredible experience.

I was not able to get there as early as I wanted, I was thinking 8am, however, my body told me different.  We were able to get there around lunch time with camera in hand and anticipation.

The group took the kids out to the arena and let them play with the cows.  There was one boy I couldn't resist to take pictures of.  He was determined to get a hold of this cow and show it who's boss:

See how he is making his plan, go from behind......

Naw, let him see you come right up to him...

Grab him by the tail....let him know who is taking control......

Now you take him for a walk, or he takes you for a walk....

Hold on.....

Uh oh the cow is walking a little faster......

Awwe!  And the cow keeps walking!  But you know what makes this little guy a real cowboy?

He gets right back up and does it again!  Little man, you are why I LOVE Cowboys! 

After this, I walked over to the round pin to watch what was going over there.  There was this other young gentleman was had never seen a horse before.  For this special occasion they were going to bring in Goliath!  GOLIATH!!!!!! What in the world!  I am looking around and when I wasn't looking they brought the beast in!

I whip my head around to see this monster and this is what I saw:

Are you ready?

I laughed and laughed!!!

Many of the children that attend this day have never touched a horse before.  With the kindness of the Double 6 Ranch and working with these children they overcome so many obstacles.  

This young man arrived with his family and he was in the arena with a few cowboys.  Ty brought in the Goliath the mini, asked him if he would like to touch the horse, No. Asked if he would like to walk the horse, No.  Then Ty asked if he would like to walk with Ty and the horse.  The young man did walk beside him and around the arena he went.  Then the young man's hand stretched out and he petted the horse.  Everyone that was watching held their breath.  They walked a little further and the young man touch the mane. The walk continued and then the young man reached for the halter and pushed Ty's hand away, he wanted to walk the horse by himself!  I was in tears at this time, in fact, so was everyone else.  The gift that this little mini gave to this young man was something you can't buy!

Now, at the end of the walking, the young man looked at Ty and asked if he could bring it home!  He even asked his mom!

I could write story after story about the day and all the miracles that I witnessed, so instead of writing them all out, I would love for you to share it first hand on the last Saturday of the month.  Their barn doors open to all!

As I have said before, I am excited about being a part of this great program and can't wait until next time!


Make sure you put on your calendar to join us for the fundraiser on the 15th!

In my Backyard...Double 6 Ranch - Apple Valley

I was on Craigslist the other day, just looking, one of my favorite sites is the farm and garden section.  Maybe a few more chickens, maybe a horse or two, maybe, who knows...that is the fun of it, just looking.

I found this:  

The Double 6 Ranch invites you to:

Autism Awareness Day & Rides

Saturday, April 17th

Sign In & Registration at 10am
4 hour Scenic, Guided, Horseback Ride starts at 12:00pm
Dinner served at 5:00pm

 Relax by the Bonfire 'till the cows come home!

$40.00 pre-sale / $50.00 at the door: to bring your horse and including dinner. 

Horse Rentals available for $65.00 and include your horse and dinner.

Want to attend, but don't want to bring your horse or do not have a horse?
Ranch Passes are $25.00 and

include admission into the ranch and dinner.

I read it and then I read it again.  A WHOLE day for $65.00!  Serious?  So, I emailed them and inquired about the price and it is exactly what is reads.  Their website is Double6Ranch.   Check this website out it is really neat.

I went ahead and paid for it and marked my calendar boy were we excited!

All I can say before I write this experience, now, afterward's, is that it was one of the most memorable and pleasurable events I have done in years.  This group is truly some of the nicest, accommodating, and very giving, They were wonderful!

We arrived there around 9AM, greeted by Emma, who introduced us to Ty who owns the Ranch.

They showed us which horse we would be riding for the day, clarifying the skill of riding, which made me feel really comfortable.  I am always VERY leery or you could even say scared of getting on a horse that I have never been on, especially since the accident a had 10 years ago, BAD!! (The horse RAN me into a tree and kept running, 4 broken ribs, concussion and the worst bruising I have ever seen).

They gave Andy Poco who as they say an incredible Gymkhana horse, which was right up his alley!

They gave me Cash, who by the way he was 16 hands!!! Got on him with a help of a chair and he was the best behaved horse!  (More on that, in a minute).  Now don't laugh at my helmet, I had no idea that it was crooked and it takes a very secure women to wear this:

  
Once everyone was saddled up and ready, which were 17 riders, we took off.  The desert was the prettiest I have EVER seen, boy did I get my fill on desert bloom.  WOW!!!!

Cash decided that he needed to be very cautious with me and took his time in walking, to the point that the guide (who was an absolute sweetheart) and I had our own group,  There was no way that horse was going to scare me and he was the perfect gentleman.  I did the 4 hour tour, worried that when I finally got off his back and I wouldn't be able to walk, at first yes, but it did get easier.

Back at the Ranch, we were waited on continuously everyone making sure we were comfortable.  The dinner was catered by Overton Meat Company, which was WOW, good food, good fellowship, who could ask for more.  By that time, everyone were like old friends.

After dinner, we went over to the corral and played with the steers, I was a dynamo!!!!  I roped one that couldn't be roped by ANYONE (actually, nobody tried, except Bill).  I was so proud of myself!  The bull was in love with me, and wouldn't leave my side, so much for being the great roper!

The bull was in love with me, and wouldn't leave my side, so much for being the great roper!

I nicknamed him Norman and wanted to take him home!  AWE!

It looks like a lot of fun, doesn't it?  Hey, do you see the llama in the background, is that llama for roping or riding?  I want to try, BOTH!!!!


When all was done it was time to have the bon fire!  They brought out marshmallows, chocolate and graham crackers!  Cool!

Fire going, sitting around in the desert evening, wow it was soo nice!  After being there all day (almost 12 hours) we said our good nights with the promises of seeing everyone the next week.

What is this ALL about?  Double 6 Ranch explains it the best: 

We believe that horses have great therapeutic value for those afflicted with special needs, and have witnessed "first words" at our program because of our horses. There is nothing more gratifying than that!

Here at the Double 6 Ranch we are proud to host a day for children with autism and/or special needs on the LAST Saturday of every month.

This is a time when special needs children, adults and their families,

have the opportunity to ride horses, learn how to rope, participate in arts and crafts, enjoy the petting zoo and just spend a day at the ranch.

Our program is offered as a free service to our community to promote and bring awareness to autism and other debilitating diseases. 

 I was VERY proud to be a part of the fundraiser and am excited about being a part of this great cause, so I will be there this Saturday to help and to be there to see the magic that is going to happen. 

Can't wait to have more pictures and stories to tell, would love to see you there!

Construction done on the fireplace!

I wrote a couple of weeks ago about all the construction being done in our living room.  Well it is finally completed! 

This was THE best investment we have made in a while.  The average temperature is 70 degrees, we haven't had that warm since the summer!

Shown below is the finished project... Yeah me!

In my Backyard....Who says the desert can't be beautiful!

Today we went down the backside of the mountain and I have been waiting for the spring wildflowers to bloom well they have!  Unfortunately, I had both my cameras in my camera bag and only had my cell phone.

The first one is after a quick but powerful storm came in overnight:

This one I had Andy pull over, wow!

As I said in the post title ,who ever said the desert isn't beautiful!